Lies

Truth does take some times
True to yourself
And mostly to your loved ones
But lies come up first
Hurting yourself and them
Why does it always goes that way?
Or it's just me
Myself that I find it hard to understand
You said that you do
Do you really?
It's too complicated
Hard for me to bear
Hard for me to make it right
Something must be wrong
But I know
Sooner or later
I'll have you to fix it
And for the lies
You must not take it
I hope not
If you do mean it

Selfish

Since when it grew in me

That I never realize
Until it already took its place
To satisfy my heart
It takes too much from you
Like I don't understand you at all
Like I can't think rationally



Honestly
I hate this side of me
How can I ask for more?
When I'm being loved
Didn't I've got enough?
When you keep loving me with all your heart
I know that I don't deserve
To be loved that much
But why do I keep asking for more?
As we say
Satisfaction is hard to be achieved
So do gratefulness

Time To Love

Once I told you
The love needs time to grow
Either a week,a month or a year
I was not really sure
Later you asked me
When love made its way
How can it be so fast?



To be honest
I was amazed by myself
As it just took a little time
You made me wondering
When I could not really find the answer
I kept digging my mind and heart
Went few weeks back
From the first step we took
Now I know
You gave me too much love
Everyday, every minute, every second
That I can't resist
So it was you
Who made me
Bringing up the love in me
That keeps growing day by day

Love Is Demanding

I see you almost everyday
But I'm still missing you
I talk to you very often
But it's still not enough
I know that you love me
But I still want you to say
Those three words



How can love grows so fast?
Without me realize
That I'm loving you every second
That I'm missing you every moment
Then I know
My heart is overloaded with your love
And I try to fill yours with mine
But this love is too demanding
Too much to be satisfied
Too much to be fulfilled

I Believe

It has been a week since then
And we did fill it with love
I'm being loved
And I'm loving you
I'm convinced
That I can put my trust in you
Someone that I give my heart to
Someone that I can count on
Someone that willingly listen to me
I'm defeated by your love
As you touch my heart
I would say
As I'm sure
The broken heart is being healed
With your true love

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Time made its decision
As I gather the courage
As I put in the strength
To ask, to tell, to clarify
For us to be one
Honesty took place
As the feelings are expressed
Sharing those felt together
How much grateful I am
How much happiness I was given
To be loved by someone
More than I do
To be accepted by a man
For who I am
To be given a chance
Feeling in love again
Then from now on
Together we write our story
As love welcomes us

Here It Comes, Again

It has not been there since then
Since I said I'm done
Since I let it go
Since I decided to stop
But it's strange this time
It's unexpected
That never cross my mind before
It's coming very slowly
That I took some time to realize
But sometimes I keep denying
As I'm not sure of it
And I don't wanna do the same mistakes again
And for now
Just let it flows naturally
Let time decides

Another Thinking

Action speaks louder than words
Trying to hide the feeling
Not as easy as it's said
Face expression can speak
Action without thinking
Comes first
Unpredictable
Spontaneous
Careful as it might be a regret
Think of what have to be said
Rationally, not emotionally
Think of what should be done
Wisely, not aggressively
Think of what would be the best words
However when heart speaks
It's often the truth
It should not be a lie
It's something that is felt truthfully
It's like speaking of the secrets
Unconsciously
Thinking of another side
If it can comfort someone
Then why not?
Think positively
As it can offer a relief

Relief

I've let it go
That I can feel the peace
Thanks to all who listened
Thanks for the shoulders
And for the words
They really comfort me
Giving me strength
When I think again
Those are just a test
It was a learning process
Maybe the same thing will happen again
Who knows
Being emotional is not a good thing
A calm heart
Gives you space to do the thinking
Of the consequences
Before you take the action
Making sure you don't hurt anyone
Feeling no regret later
But most of all
Patience is the best solution

Appreciation

My body shivers
My hand trembles
My head explodes
I cried too much
Till I get very tired
All I want is understanding
Support
And a shoulder to cry on
I was lucky to have shoulders
Ears to listen
Words to comfort
Just for now
I really need hugs
Even from afar
I'm sorry to cry like this
It is not what I usually be
But this burden is too much
I wish to put it away
I wish to forget it
Though I know I can't
Even forgiveness won't take it away
It hurts me like hell
Don't care what people think
That's just a side of me
That people don't really know
Coz they never see me like that
Once ago, I was like that
Crying a lot in front of my friends
They seemed to worry about me a lot
Just like today
Now I know
I make people worry when I cry
Coz they know
It must be something that really hurts me
And yes it is
Thanks to all
Really love you
With all my heart

Anger

Something's messing around my head
Got heaps already
But people don't know
They just wanna satisfy themselves
Expressing their feelings
Didn't take others'
Before you say something
Just take a few seconds to think
How will they take it?
How would they feel about it?
Don't you bother to think about others?
They're just humans, as you are, as I am
Put yourself into their shoes
Then you'll know how does it really feels
Taking your words
Like stabbing my heart
It's really hard to satisfy everyone
But I learn how to make them feel good
I try as best as I can
But it seems like it's never appreciated
That's what disappoint me the most

The First Step

Everything has a start

An end too
It's something that you decide
Your heart and your mind
Working together
Giving you the best choice