Appreciation

My body shivers
My hand trembles
My head explodes
I cried too much
Till I get very tired
All I want is understanding
Support
And a shoulder to cry on
I was lucky to have shoulders
Ears to listen
Words to comfort
Just for now
I really need hugs
Even from afar
I'm sorry to cry like this
It is not what I usually be
But this burden is too much
I wish to put it away
I wish to forget it
Though I know I can't
Even forgiveness won't take it away
It hurts me like hell
Don't care what people think
That's just a side of me
That people don't really know
Coz they never see me like that
Once ago, I was like that
Crying a lot in front of my friends
They seemed to worry about me a lot
Just like today
Now I know
I make people worry when I cry
Coz they know
It must be something that really hurts me
And yes it is
Thanks to all
Really love you
With all my heart