Here It Comes, Again

It has not been there since then
Since I said I'm done
Since I let it go
Since I decided to stop
But it's strange this time
It's unexpected
That never cross my mind before
It's coming very slowly
That I took some time to realize
But sometimes I keep denying
As I'm not sure of it
And I don't wanna do the same mistakes again
And for now
Just let it flows naturally
Let time decides

Another Thinking

Action speaks louder than words
Trying to hide the feeling
Not as easy as it's said
Face expression can speak
Action without thinking
Comes first
Unpredictable
Spontaneous
Careful as it might be a regret
Think of what have to be said
Rationally, not emotionally
Think of what should be done
Wisely, not aggressively
Think of what would be the best words
However when heart speaks
It's often the truth
It should not be a lie
It's something that is felt truthfully
It's like speaking of the secrets
Unconsciously
Thinking of another side
If it can comfort someone
Then why not?
Think positively
As it can offer a relief

Relief

I've let it go
That I can feel the peace
Thanks to all who listened
Thanks for the shoulders
And for the words
They really comfort me
Giving me strength
When I think again
Those are just a test
It was a learning process
Maybe the same thing will happen again
Who knows
Being emotional is not a good thing
A calm heart
Gives you space to do the thinking
Of the consequences
Before you take the action
Making sure you don't hurt anyone
Feeling no regret later
But most of all
Patience is the best solution

Appreciation

My body shivers
My hand trembles
My head explodes
I cried too much
Till I get very tired
All I want is understanding
Support
And a shoulder to cry on
I was lucky to have shoulders
Ears to listen
Words to comfort
Just for now
I really need hugs
Even from afar
I'm sorry to cry like this
It is not what I usually be
But this burden is too much
I wish to put it away
I wish to forget it
Though I know I can't
Even forgiveness won't take it away
It hurts me like hell
Don't care what people think
That's just a side of me
That people don't really know
Coz they never see me like that
Once ago, I was like that
Crying a lot in front of my friends
They seemed to worry about me a lot
Just like today
Now I know
I make people worry when I cry
Coz they know
It must be something that really hurts me
And yes it is
Thanks to all
Really love you
With all my heart